An open book.

So I had not updated my blog for months now, and I really wanted to publish this post. Nevertheless my stupid health decided to take a toll today so that gave me another excuse to write something from bed. Well, this is a little different post, as this is not going to be about cancer, but more about me. Since I am almost out of it, I decided to make this a bit more personal, rather than this stupid disease.

If I had to put my life in one sentence, I would just say 'Living every moment'. Like most Sagis, I am a spontaneous soul who objects the barriers of societal cages and likes to fly in every direction, come what may. Call me cliched, but Rom-Coms with Rocky Road and snuggly blankets are my favourite. My best friends mean everything to me. And I love art. Food is my life and Chocolates my heart beat. Often called the 'baby' of the group, I need constant supervision and I dont believe in the concept of growing up. Yeah your skin can show your wrinkles but why your heart? Let it still live young. Rain, I love the rain. I love the 80's romantic flicks, and I cry every time I watch Titanic. I do want to quote the famous 'Notting Hill' dialogue in front of a guy. And I do wanna play paint ball like Heath ledger in '10 things I hate about you', but I hate the concept of finding someone who 'Completes you'. Like whaaaa? If you have a mind which works and a heart which beats then you are complete. Nobody can complete a heartless soul or a mindless retard. You can have someone who complements your existence, like peanut butter and jam. But common, plain peanut butter tastes godly. And why be peanut butter when you can be nutella, spreading happiness just by existing as yourself. And loving and complementing yourself. Yes, getting up in the morning and calling yourself beautiful, and blowing a flying kiss to the mirror is not stupid. Trust me, your whole day goes good then. You are like a jar of nutella, special and one of a kind.

I LOVE 'FRIENDS'. One of the saddest things ever to happen to this world is that show being stopped and Matt LeBlanc getting old. Joey had a deal with god man. While other girls might want Agustus Waters or that sparkly Vampire, I am a Joey girl. But thank god for Modern Family. Yeah, the closest thing to Friends. Recently with this whole Cancer thing, I actually got to know myself better, and the regret I have is reading 'The fault in our stars'. Because that's nothing like reality. In reality Cancer patients cannot really get intimate and stuff. They cant even have Pani Puri forget having sex. They are just really bored people finding a new past time. And yeah, the Cigarette metaphor is bullshit. Why Cigarette? Put a bloody Bazooka and say that nah. Yeah that book is misleading. Just saying. And that's my opinion FYI. No offence to anyone who loves it.

I love baking too, but I am more of a Walter White Heisenberg, than some pastry chef. Yeah my cakes aren't really the best in the world but my friends love it, so I bake for them. I call my four closest friends my magic beans because they are. If it weren't for them, I would not have even a percent of courage to fight this. And yeah, I don't really need anything else or anyone else in my life. I am more like the 'Phoebe' among them. I like being random, just like this post and making each second count. I feel if you cant live every moment of your life, then why exist? I love dogs. I dont call those four legged souls 'animals'. We are more savage than them. They are the purest souls ever. And if you ever have a dog, you just cannot be sad. Sadly I cant have one because of my mothers hate towards them. Whats life without doggy fur and saliva on you? And hey, that doesn't sound gross.

I absolutely love Harry Potter. That's among the few books I have read. And the best one so far. Each time I go through it, I learn something new. Like its the most beautiful woven magic ever casted and each page is like fairy dust dusted on us. Like a blessing. I don't really read many books, and I am trying to work upon that habit. I ain't religious, but ain't an atheist also. I believe in the existence of some force protecting us and helping us out whenever we are down. A formless force, just there beyond the explanation of science.

Music is the window to someone's soul, and I love music. I ain't talking about singing and stuff because I am practically tone deaf and only the showers have heard me sing. I have no fixed taste in music but I love the old classics. If you want to impress a girl just sing 'I just called to say I love you' by Stevie Wonder and Voilá, you will have anyone by your side.
If I had name a favourite band, I would say Coldplay. Yes my heart did break when Chris Martin did an impromptus gig in Delhi.

I love my college. Whatever people might say, Christ was seriously one of the most amazing parts of my life. And that's only because of the people I met there. The people I can call mine, because of the immense love I have gotten from them. One of the worst part of this disease is missing college. No, not the 6:30 routine, but the amazing life I had there.

This is probably the most impromptu post I have ever written, just pouring my heart out and probably the most meaningless. And if you have been reading all this while, I cannot thank you enough. People always mistake Cancer being someone's life, but actually its just a small part of the abstract art we call life.That's one of the reasons I wanted to publish this post as not everything in my life is about this disease. It much more. Toodles. :)